12:03 p.m. - 2009-06-26
too much?
There are times that I wonder if I am too open. Since right now I want to spill my guts but I wonder who will read the words-- it makes me hesitate.
Still, I will continue on. Mainly because I am trying to be strong, I haven't called my husband and I am not going to pretend it doesn't matter. And that means this is my only source to vent.
I am in a position of authority. Which I have always doubted and today is one of the bad days that keeps me doubting.
I try to do a good job. To make the atmosphere enjoyable. Somewhere in the mix I am failing because I get walked all over. And everything I have instated is questioned and condemned.
