7:50 a.m. - 2008-08-11
in the night
You hear all the greatest people say that all their fab ideas come at night or early in the morning. It's true. Since I have been spending more time awake during these times I have noticed my mind is clearer more impressionable. The sad thing is I don't write it down and my moments of clarity are soon lost by my eagerness to sleep.
I know I had a moment like this last night while rocking my little guy back to sleep.. and I remember tellling myself to blog about it today.... but today I have no idea what it was.
I have a good memory. Really in college I would memorize all my notes for an upcoming test. I serisouly could recreate my notes word for word by memory or I wasn't prepared for the test. It was embarassing how I would remember names of people I had only met once and they clearly had no idea who I was. I am not sure if it's all the hormones, or the lack of sleep or just a combo of both but I can't remember the simplest of things anymore. I even forgot the name of a character on Grey's Anatomy-- I know this is getting serious now!
I hope this subsides before I return to work, or this transition is going to be harder than I thought. One thing I haven't forgotten: where the treats live. 9 pounds to go still.
I got spoiled when I lost 20 pounds in a week. I always new that it wouldn't all melt off of me, but after lossing 35 pounds in 2-3 weeks I was starting to hope that it would just continue until the 120-125 range appeared on the scale. I am stuck at 134. I have a goal to lose it ALL by the blessing... that only leaves me 13 days. And I am still trying to recover from my eating habits I picked up over the last 9 months. I have discover how much I really really like treats.
I remember back when I never ate treats-- EVER. Oh how silly I was! I was such a freak while in college. All those pretty perfect mormon girls really got to me. Somewhere between meeting Wade and getting married he straightened me out a bit. A bit, I am still annal about plenty of things but at least I can enjoy oreos now and peanut M&Ms, and brownies, and ice cream, and..., and..., and...,
