7:27 a.m. - 2008-12-23
Do I need to stop?
I like this little diaryland thing I have going on. I can go back to 2005 and remember things that would otherwise be long lost. I try to be 100% honest with my feelings here. I want to remember them--to live them. Some how I feel like it is my way of truly feeling them and then letting them go. I read a book of an abuse survivor and her survival rested on feeling the anger, pain, fear,etc. and dealing with it so she could leave it behind.
In my own way I find this blog does this for me. However, some events I find are too personal for a public forum. And it makes me wonder if I need to find a new outlet. Can I say goodbye and let it go? If I keep it and use another place for personal healing won't this blog turn into just another fake memory book that revolves around only pleasant niceties?
Anyway, without saying too much to reveal my true feelings or offend anyone that may read: My feelings were hurt. I imagine it will take some time to let it go and forget. Lucky me, I am a grouch just in time for the Holidays. And no I don't really want to talk about it.
