8:05 p.m. - 2009-01-04
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It feels like the first day back at work. This Christmas vacation has been great. I haven't pumped in days and waking to my little ones squeaks and squeals has been a joy. But tomorrow I go back to work... and Wyatt goes to a new babysitter. I am a wreck. I feel more nervous than my first day back. It was truly an answer to my prayers that we found someone on such short notice and so close to home... but I have only met her once and let's face it I am very good a worrying.
A week ago I had decided that I would just take every Monday off and Wade every Friday. That was my perfect solution to our babysitting delima. Of course that would only work as long as the PTO lasted which would only be 22 weeks. Another flaw was not having any time for vacations or sick leave. So I kept looking for another solution. And it worked out just in time and seemingly perfectly--but yet I still worry and stew over not being with my baby.
He will be fine--probably won't notice me being absent. But he never leaves my mind.
