7:13 a.m. - 2009-01-13
Te amo
Why is it in the middle of the night I lay awake in bed thinking about topics I should write down? I think I would much rather be sleeping between screaming fits but whatever.
Last night, the "Te Amo" story kept me up....
It was summer 2004. Wade and I were dating and were coming up on 2 months when my sister got married. I was so excited for her, the wedding was wonderful, she was radiant but her marriage meant she was moving states away. All though I was overjoyed for her, part of me ached that she was going to be so far away. Wade being the sweet man he is bought me a locket to help me keep her close to my heart.
She had a reception here in Utah the day of the wedding and 2 weeks later held an open house in Washington. I was bringing all the gifts from the Utah reception to Yakima and attending the open house there. It was early July and my older brother Pete, my best friend Carly, and I piled into my little altima and headed to WA.
I had set Carly up with her now husband right when Wade and I had hooked up. He had already told her that he Loved her and naturally it filled our conversation the majority of the trip. When we left Utah I was frightened that Love would eventually find it's way into our relationship and ruin everything. A few days in Wade and I had an akward conversation. Something about roadtrips, it was my arizona road trip that made me pick Wade over his roommate and this Washington road trip full of weddings and love made me question my feelings for Wade.
I called Wade and told him that my opinion of marriage was changing. I didn't keep my opinions to myself much and he knew exactly what I was refering to. He played dumb and forced me to say it out loud- that maybe, just maybe someone could love me forever and that someone was probably him. His response: SILENCE! I was furious, he had just forced me to outwardly tell him that I was falling for him and he had nothing in return??? That phone call ended abruptly.
Somehow my feelings of missing him won over my anger and as we were returning home to Utah. Carly taught me how to tell Wade I loved him in Spanish. Te Amo.
I arrived home on July 4th. Wade was at work I hurried over to see him. Somehow we got into a fight and I left after just a few minutes.
The next day July 5th, 2004 we had a date. We ended up at Sundance. Our little spat was long forgotten and I knew I was going to tell him I loved him. We both knew that our courtship would be changed forever when I left for Graduate school in August and I asked him to come with me. "If you move to Pittsburgh I'll probably marry you" which was then followed up with "Te Amo."
Shocked he didn't say anything, but we quickly started planning his move across the country. He eventually told me he loved me too, but the place and the time I don't remember.
