11:15 a.m. - 2009-04-13
never again
Wyatt is sleeping through the night like a champ. Somedays sleeping in well past his normal 7:30 and Wade has to go in and wake him around 8:30.
It is nice to sleep for a block of time, I am glad that I didn't make him cry it out, the second time around. The first time around went smoothly and I am glad that we started that way. I guess it just means that sometimes you have to adjust and that every child is different.
Maybe it is just the guilt talking but I feel like Wyatt just wanted some time with me. I also attribute his clingy-ness to the fact that half his day is spent away from me. Bottom line, I feel like the 15 minutes I was spendng with him was reassuring him that I was close by--Even though sometimes I'm not...
I wonder about having more kids. Not because I am ready mostly because I am not and I worry that I may never be. Wade mentioned something on a whim the other day that made we stop and ponder how it's going to play out. He whimsically said that I should stay at work until after babe#2-- giving us Health insurance and paid leave. If we were to do that it would mean getting prego pronto. I can't. That's what started it all... but i can't I can't even entertain the idea without crying and hyperventilating. I suppose that is the answer. it's not gonna happen.
