9:26 a.m. - 2009-04-17
the begining of the end.
Today I left the pump at home. I am now 26 minutes past my first pump break of the day. I feel confused.
Happy:
that I don't have to worry about logging out for a few minutes and being judged by co-workers.
that I won't have to cart my pump around and spend more time in the morning getting ready.
that it means that someday I will be free to be me again and not a foodsource
that my poor, worn out, cracked nipples *might* stop hurting constantly
Sad:
that I feel like I am giving up on my goal to breastfeed a full year.
that I will need to pay attention to my diet a little better
Worried:
that taking this step will mean that I quit all together
about how much more we will spend on formula
that my supply will slowly dry up before baby and mommy are ready
