9:30 a.m. - 2009-07-27
the greener grass
I suppose it is human nature to never be satisfied. I have plans of someday quiting this job that is making me miserable. This job that I have, this job that I have spent 4.5 years doing has suddenly become unbearable. Which makes me stop and wonder what has changed. Yes it has been hard since having Wyatt; working is never the place I want to be but it hasn't been pure torture.
Maybe it's because I don't feel valued, or perhaps taken advantage of. The childish part of me wants to let them deal with it without me. Each day I spend here seems to push me closer to the end. The logical part of me trys to convince myself that I can do this and it's not so bad. While that lasts long enough to get me to show up in the morning by the time the office fills with co-workers I am done.
so I wonder if I am just hating my perfectly green grass because I am human and sick and tired of all the circumstances or am I being moved in the direction of my life path that I would never dare if left to my own?
You know the movie Joe vs. the Volcano. I am Joe.
