11:37 p.m. - 2009-10-20
guilty, not guilty?
I carry around alot of guilt with me. I don't know why. It makes me wonder if this is a normal human trait. Could it be due to my xx chromosome--are all women twisted in this silly mess? Maybe I should just blame one more thing on my dysfunctional childhood; it has been functioning as my catch all for all of my adult life.
I feel guilty when I go to work, but feel more guilt when I take time off.
Guilty because I want to focus on the baby I have. Guilt that in the end he will wish he had a sibling or mulitple.
Guilt that I brought my husband and child into my life even when I knew my road would be rocky.
